Tuesday, March 27, 2007
cheryl cut her hair. her hairdresser convinced her that it's going to be great. her mum thought she looked like a schoolgirl. her bf thought she look like a combination btn a mop and a helmet (the old sch kind). somehow it only looks good at certain times. it looked the best only at stupid REDS. i need a new hairdresser maybe.. suggestions.Keith is not lousy. he just thinks that i can carry off those extreme styles.. i dun really think i can at times. and it makes me hard to find sth to wear TO GO with my hair. today is just day 1. i can't like wear tee and shorts. it's just... weird.. hopefully it grows faster.
anyway the world is quite damn small. karen- my tut mate in econs plays hockey! and she's in police and she knew eunice and wei for like almost forever. and she din think that i could play cuz i'm so small. was totally shocked when i told her i'm a defender. maybe i shld pick up the stick again. if the training fits my timetable.
sometimes it's gd sticking to sth u're familiar with. sth you're gd at. sometimes even if u try sth new u feel out of place like u're nv gd enough. maybe i shld stop trying. it's frustrating.
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:18:00 AM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
had a craving for hot steaming pancakes with blueberries, fresh cream and bananas just that night. it was like 2+am already actually. was watching some serial as usual and i saw pancakes.. so i msged shawn to tell him about it.So, anyway the next morning he came over to jog with me. yes.. i've been trying to work out more cuz my stamina is like crap now. and i was mugging in my room after that. and suddenly, he appears again with blueberry pancakes! how sweet rite. that boy went into my kitchen and made pancakes without anyone noticing- not even my aunt who was doing chores. that was the best pancakes ever. i'm serious.. hahaa..
see.. i'm not that pessimistic after all. i'm just not blogging about it. HA.
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:20:00 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
i cannot handle grief. it's too hard to bear. the emptiness that comes from losing someone or something you love. i lost baby today. i din know that it was the last time i'd ever see him when i played with him last night. I was still telling my mum to use the instant shampoo on him today.
it's only a hamster rite.. and he has only been with me for 1 yr and 5 mths exactly. but things just feel different. the living room will nv feel the same. there's no one to say goodbye to at the door b4 i leave. there's no one to play with when i'm sick of studying. there's no one like him..
i cried like mad in the car when i received the news. cried more b4 i stepped into my house (and tried to compose myself b4 i see my mum) and i cried forever as i put him into a box and covered him with the sawdust and surround him with flowers, food and his chewing blocks. i realised it's the first time i ever buried my hamster. (i left it to my mum when my other hamsters died).
To my baby, the silliest and cutest hamster... i love you.. rest in peace..
him in his little house.
him snuggled in his little corner..
i wish i had more pictures of him..... i wish he never left....
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:43:00 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
sometimes pple tell u that they understand what you are going through but think about it, how many times have you said that and actually you don't really feel that way?words of comfort. you don't mean what you say. many of us do that, not all the time of course. we are all entitled to obsession of ourselves and we're entitled to our selfishness.
but sometimes, what we need is really a listening ear and acknowledgement to our presence and thoughts. sometimes, we need to be a little more selfless and listen to what others have to say even if you think it's lame or silly or whatever.
sometimes we just need to learn to be a better friend..
Labels: Reflections
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:59:00 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
love is a complicated thing.. Some argue that it is actually really straightforward. it's either there or not there. But is it really? there are so many types of love.. go figure...i'm falling in love once again.. sweet sweet love.
it's the simple things we fall in love with.