Tuesday, January 30, 2007

hamsters running on their wheels. nv fails to amaze me how they keep running esp the one i have at home. it's like this need for speed and u can't stop. sometimes u run too quickly and u go up the wheel or when u slow down but the wheel keeps moving and u fall back. we all live according to the pace of others. We are all hamsters on wheels.

the wheel stops moving

the clock stops ticking

when will we fall into place?

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:18:00 AM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

my life is a vacumm now. it's like all the air and life is sucked out of it leaving me high and dry. so i sit in my little bubble and watch everything go by. nothing changes in my little bubble but somehow everything is changing outside.

you can never control whats on the outside. it hits you all the time. the bubble just goes whereever its supposed to n i get pulled along with it. one day eventually, the bubble will break from all that pressure outside. at that instance, i'll feel the euphoria from that air and then panic will hit me and i'll die.

sometimes i wish that things will nv change. and everyone will perhaps be in the same vacumm. perhaps things will never be like what it is now but perhaps its for the better.

for all thats worth, things will nv be the same again

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:52:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

finally a sign of approval of hedwig! yeah!! when she doesn't say anything it means that it's good rite? wahaha.. this shows that even though i can't really edit leads, i can write gd ones myself! at least newspaper editing paid off (the way i read the papers now is the editing style. i spot mistakes and i circle them and stuff). NEWSPAPER READING IS NO FUN whatever it is. hopefully i don't screw up further..

New year is coming so is our 2nd aniversary and valentine's day. I need to shop and i need ideas for gifts and people to go shopping with as well. and i wish that money will drop from the sky into my arms or my bank account. haha..

another wk passed. time really passes by quickly. i feel myself ageing..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:16:00 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

my hamster has 2 lumps sticking out of his lower body, somewhere near his butt. and it gave my mum n me a scare. so shawn n i brought baby to the vet- thinking that he has cancer and the tumour is growing at a tremendous rate (it appeared out of nowhere!). So there i was crying in the car thinking of the terrible fate of my hamster- when he is dying, will it be painful blablah.

so we went to the vet and baby was grabbed, squeezed and looked at by the vet. his conclusion was..... it's testies(what commonly known as BALLS)! like wth! how would i know that my hamster will grow balls out of nowhere! anyways baby has abnormal balls. it's 2 on 1 side and 1 being considerably bigger than the other- which is a major concern that there's a tumour inside it. and hamster balls are usually inside but it can come out as well. sometimes things screw up and the balls don't go back in. anyway i got to scrutinize baby each day to see if his balls grow bigger or shifts position and stuff. so yes.. i'm squeezing balls these days.

the whole event was rather amusing actually. and it costs 30 bucks! just for consultation ok! it's as expensive as my hamster! my goodness! n if i want to remove the balls it'll cost like 150 bucks! n how the hell will my baby survive after that trauma of removing his balls! poor him. whatever it is, he's still very much alive and running crazily on his wheel. i will miss him when he's gone. hopefully not so in the near future..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 8:58:00 AM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

i'm about the face the greatest challenge in about 3 hours time. it's hedwig's tutorial. i'm prepared to get slammed by her, and i suppose everyone else is as well. i wonder why did i choose to postpone this torture to the end of the wk, which means that i spend the whole of every wk thinking of what she'll throw at me. seriously.. i hate newswriting. i can't write for nuts. i guess thats that huge part of me that does not scream CS.

i shld learn to look beyong all these. cuz it's the last day of the wk for me. which is not sth to really look forward to. weekends= readings, tuition, research and blah nonsense.

someone take it all away.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:47:00 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

tuesdays are going to be and already are the worst days of my wk. try doing back to back lessons from 830-230 then another lec from 530-630. life nv sucked more. plus the fact that i got to run from cs to this horribly secluded tutorial room all the way at the end of S4 and back for tutorials. and now i'm stuck in the mac lab doing designing stuff which i know nuts about. tell me about it.. why din i get my 3 day wk. life would b so much better and my stomach wun be growling now.. bah!

yesyesyes.. i whine alot. gabriel agrees as well cuz he's watching me whine. n now its back to class.. with my lecturer looking totally like he just woke up with that hair of his.. hmmhmmmhmmmm.. i shall remember to bring food on tues.. someone remind me thank you..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:33:00 PM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

first wk of sch. 3 days appearing for lessons. major screwups and messy timetables in btn. n i finally finalised my timetable for the sem. it's definitely not what i envisioned. there goes my 3 day wk. i'm stuck with a 4 day. n it means i have to appear every damn day for the 4 days each wk. somehow it doesn't matter anymore.

there was this period of time during and after the competition i felt that perhaps studying and getting really gd grades din matter- which explains my horrible grades for 1st sem yr 1. then i realised that the outcome i wished for will probably not come anytime soon. thats when i concentrated more on my grades. come to think of it, seriously.. does the grade matter that much when u have no idea what u wanna become at the end of the 4 yrs in uni. sometimes, gd grades dun get u where u want. nevertheless, i see the need to maintain at least my 2nd upper. i can forget about 1st class. if not for that 1st sem, 1st class WAS possible. so to maintain it, i gotta go to sch.

somehow my dream came a step closer to me during the hols. n it seems closer than ever now. i dun dare to wish for too much, or it may go away. sometimes u can't look for opportunities, they come looking for u. n when it comes, u either get a good hold on it, or it may just slip past u. i'm realistic, somehow i know what the outcome may be, but i just dun want to face it. Reality can be rather cruel.

maybe i shld just be a gd student.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:37:00 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

i just got my braces on yesterday. n seriously.. i look horrible. what happened to 'i used to think braces look damm cute'? yes.. and now i look totally cute. like a 14 yr old totally.. for the sake of my beautiful smile returning, i got to put up with this ugliness for 6 mths. n i got to go for auditions with this horible smile now.. i feel like a dinosaur from jurassic park! not going to put up pics of myself! it's damn bad. see me in sch or ask me out and u'll know. provided i open my mouth to talk. bah!

received another gift yesterday. a rather unexpected gift from someone really nice but not really close to me. could be considered a distant relative. and i got... my first prada bag.

mine is in black. i wonder when i'll use it. shall find a chance someday. rather small. and horribly expensive. people will probably think i'm carrying a fake. but let me make this clear.. cheryl does not carry imitations. if you can't afford it, don't pretend that u can. i think the most impt thing is being urself instead of trying to be like others. screw social acceptance. i'm happy with cheap bags and clothes, as long as u can carry it off in ur own way. tts true classiness.

i need to go shopping. shui told me of that punk rockish guess bag that she wanted to get for me instead of the watch. i so want to go see it!! hahaa.. but i guess what i really need is a mask to hide my horrible mouth with braces.. AH!!!!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:49:00 AM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

i had the best bdae party yesterday thanks to all my friends and of cuz my darling who was the grand mastermind. to all the friends that turned up, thanks so much, i love u guys to bits. and to those friends who DID NOT TURN UP, i still love you even though u ps my party, just NOT AS MUCH as the rest who showed. :P so the OTHERS, if u want as much love, u better RE-THROW me a 21st party. esp CHONG FU YEE!! (dun give me that nonsense that sentosa is too far away. it's my 21st for goodness sake u horrible boy!!!)

so anyway, the plan kept changing and we ended up at a chalet in downtown east. was blindfolded all the way from my place. for safety purposes, shawn even put a cap to cover my eyes. so we walked, IN THE RAIN, with this funny umbrella with balloons (wen passed it to shawn along the way) and then wenlin carried me and threw me onto the bed covered with balloons. n i din burst everything. so.. they made me use my butt to burst everything. damn crazy. i believe someone may have a video of me doing that and the balloons not bursting.

the cake was delicious, sorry but i can't remember where it was from. some shop in taka beside orange julius was all i can remember. the name is.. RICE? or was it RYCE? haha.. whatever it is, it was great!

and i love my gifts!!

my huge bouquet of flowers

guess watch and jigsaw from the cs peeps
babydoll tube and junk food tee from wenz, mabs and diong

diamond necklace from the sisters and braders (10 years of friendship.. love u guys!)
and of cuz my darling.. for the party, the flowers, the penguin water dispenser that i've been wanting for a long time

and also this..

my 1st diamond ring.. (the pic doesn't do it justice. which is why i may go get myself a new camera. ahhaa..)

no it din come in the blue box. it came in a casio ex slim digicam box together with 2 cans of sprite. shawn's attempt to make me think that he bought me a new digicam. n i really thought it was real. saw it in one corner of the room. haha.. was quite happy anyway.. and only when he revealed it later, i was truly surprised. it's like the most precious thing in my life now other than him. thanks dear. for everything u've done. and to shui and wen, thanks for helping to organise the party. i love u guys..

that moment.. i felt young again. the feeling of being 14.. thanks

so anyway.. some incident happened. me shui shawn went out to play sparklers. and then shawn went back to get sth. just as he was coming out, i noticed that the key was still sitting in the key thingy, and i went 'EHHHhh' and that silly boy look stunned and slammed the door shut. so.. we were locked out of the room. the smartest thing we did was to.. PICK THE LOCK with the sparklers. shui and i came up with that silly idea la. so, we were happily picking the lock for ages, and it still din work like it did in the movies.. while shawn was getting the security, this indian garbage man came up to us after watching us for a long time.
'left ur key inside?'
'this lock very special, cannot open like that. must call the security'
in our failed attempt to pick the lock, we were even humiliated by the indian man. whatever it was, it was fun. pictures to be up soon. once people start sending me the pictures.. :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:11:00 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

cheryl's ridiculous birthday wishlist
1. 46x30cm leather tote bag. (large rectangular shape) that sort which is really flat and light like those artist bag or whatever u call it.
2. ipod mini radio remote with headphones (radio to keep me entertained when i'm sick of the songs in my ipod)
3. the whole series of skII beauty products to keep my skin nice and subtle
4. digicam (preferably sony cybershot) if not sth nice and slim and light that comes with antishock so my pics will not be blurry anymore)
5. my tiffany princess cut ring
6. a key made of gold (size got to be the normal key size)
7. a tiara made of swarovski crystals (or a bracelet or choker make of that will do too!)
8. a nose job plus a boob job plus lipo!! ahhaa.. to make me perfect.
9. to party all night with my friends together with the above gifts from them
10. to not grow old ever.

if all fails, just give me cash. practical and fuss free. u can transfer the money to my bank account. i'll just take it from there.. hahaa...

precisely why this is called the ridiculous bdae wishlist..
some stuff are just unattainable.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:09:00 AM

Monday, January 01, 2007

dear friends.. i've survived the earthquake and now back in singapore. currently lying in the hospital bed due to fractures and whatever not when the building collapsed on me.. YEAH RITE! ahaha.. i'm perfectly fine pq. the earthquake was rather fun for me. my first earthquake. n i was in my room's toilet trying to shit when it happened. damn funny la.. felt like i was on a boat or sth. nothing too serious. :) that was one of the highlights on the trip.

let's see. the weather was rather cold. cuz it was really windy. if i listened to shui and wore tee and shorts, i wud have died. so we arrived on christmas eve. sadly, no celebrations. taiwanese not into christmas i think. we had a tatami style bedroom for the 1st 2 nights in taipei. it looked not bad, until we tried the bed.. it's like sleeping on the floor la.. 2 terrible nights on that bed, i almost died..

christmas was spent in taipei. went up taipei 101. nice view. din do that the other time. the life is damn fast la. went up to the 89th floor in like 30sec. amazing. they provided this silly phone for u to do the tour with. (all pictures to be uploaded later.) had christmas dinner at this wu1 ya1 chang2 shou4 place. portions were huge. we only ordered 2 sets. each set is meant for 2. but there were like 4 plates of spagetti and 2 steaks. plus drinks and cakes. also went to wu fen pu but seriously.. there was nothing much to buy cuz it's all warm clothings. so i ended up buying like bags and shoes and food.

3rd day, we stopped over at lo2 dong1. this little town or sth. that was where the earthquake happened. we had this steak thingy there. i think taiwanese got huge apetities. they like their portions big. the steak comes with like udon as well. it was quite good la..

stayed at jiao1 xi1 for the 4th and 5th day. we were there for the hotsprings. it was damn good. they have so many different pools. milk, coffee, aloe vera, rose, herbs, sulphur, wine, massaging pools and beds, steam rooms, sauna, stone beds and slides too. damn amazing! they also have this fish pool, where they have those fishes inside to bite off ur dead skin and stuff. mindy and i were screaming and squirming. fishes are gross la. so we only put it in for a while and pulled it out when the fish bit her. so shawn and ernest happily played with the fishes while we looked on. the steamrooms had different flavours- peppermint, ginger, sandal wood and blahblah. it changes each day. and of cuz the extreme hot and cold pools which was too hard to bear.

5th day we went to jiu3 fen4- an old town. and the weather was horrible. it was pouring and cuz it was up in the mountains, it was damn windy. we were freezing our butts off. then we proceeded to the gold musuem where they used to mine for gold. we went into the tunnel as well and we touched this huge gold bar on display. they had this crown prince chalet there as well-- japan occupied taiwan for some time then, and thus they built this chalet for the crown prince when he came to visit. if not for the bad weather, it would be alot more fun.

last 3 days we were back in taipei. and it was trying to shop and shop. bought my onizuka tiger and this pair of birks. and ate lots of mee sua, had the huge chicken cutlet at shilin, our shanghai sheng1 jian1 bao1 and other snacks. saw some really cute dogs on sale. so cute!! also, on this trip, we played lots of basketball on the machines. taiwanese are crazy about it. haha.. it was everywhere la, even on the mountains!!

but the sad thing is that i developed a rash. dunno whether it's allergy to sth or what. may be the hotsprings. so i was itching for the last 3 days and until now. shall watch my one tree hill to distract myself.

cheryl shall put up a bdae wish list later. and maybe the stuff will appear in a box some day soon..