Tuesday, October 31, 2006
spent last night helping out at the funeral. funerals are exhausting. i'm not complaining. i went on my own accord. what i meant is, that it is mentally exhausting for the family and physical exhaustion is nothing compared to that. saw his grandma crying a couple of times. felt sad for her. and me being emotional shed a few tears in the corner cuz i can't be around grieving people. i feel their pain and loss. so i made myself busy clearing the tables and stuff. there's only so much i can do and it doesn't lessen the pain. but i guess.. we all have to adapt to our losses. i wonder what will i do when something like that happens to my family. i dun dare to think about it. time will heal all wounds.. perhaps a really long time later, you can just look back on the good old days and smile to yourself, genuinely.Posted by sil3ntrain at 8:34:00 PM
Monday, October 30, 2006
i'm going to do braces AGAIN. yes.. again.. why? cuz the shape of my teeth now has nothing to do with my stupid wisdom tooth! cuz after my braces treatment the other time, and after my retainers treatment.. i stopped wearing my retainers. and my teeth start moving after a looOoooOong time.. so now.. my front tooth is slightly displaced. shawn (my dentist) said that the left side of my mouth is fine.. only the right side teeth are moving. it's really funny.. so anyway.. point is.. i have to wear braces again. on the front 6 teeth on the top.so after that.. the price of my smile will be.. 6000 bucks!! my mum thinks that it's worth doing the braces again since she already spent a bomb on it. so today i cleaned my teeth and did my lower set of retainers. :))) so exciting to go to the dentist..
the front tooth that is jutted out.. the one that shui thinks i'm paranoid over..
my current smile= 4644 bucks (includes bottom set of retainers)
totally excited about the braces. gonna do it probably in dec or jan. :)
i love u baby i cannot spell teeth--> contributions of shawn ng aka not my dentist
Posted by sil3ntrain at 4:50:00 PM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
celebrated wen's bdae this early morning. surprise party!!! we were all hiding in the toilet of seletar reservior. and i had the honor to light up and blow out the candles on her bdae cake while we were all hiding behind the bushes waiting for her to appear. her bf is so sweet to throw her this surprise party. of cuz.. without us, it wun be as special!! :) 1st 21st party and many more to come. next yr is going to be horrible.. everyone's 21st. sigh... i foresee myself going broke and crazy shopping for presents.. but well.. only 1 21st..yesterday also taught me to treasure the people you love. shawn's granddad passed away. first time that anyone i know passed away. the feeling is.. i dunno.. i'm not gd at grieving. but the most impt thing is that you treasure what you have now. sigh..
this is random.. like everything in life is..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:06:00 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
horribly long day at sch today! and it's gonna be another long day tmr. 830 lec and 2 sessions with my 2 kids. great.. how great..on the train to sch today. i gave up my seat to an old lady. :)) and then.. after the old lady left, 2 people got on the train into the cabin i was in. 1 young guy and 1 old lady. Young man saw the seat. so did old lady. What did that guy do? HE RUSHED TO THE SEAT, SAT DOWN AND CLOSED HIS EYES IMMEDIATELY. poor old lady could only stand there. i was staring at him la. that idiot. so this nice lady sitting beside that disgusting guy gave up her seat for the old lady.
THIS IS THAT ASSHOLE!! and the poor old lady he snatched the seat away from!!! how unbecoming of these young people who are so ungentlemenly! u make ladies give up their seats la! GO REFLECT!! too bad i dun really know how to post on STOMP. next time i see u again. i'll call the police!!
off to bed. dun let me see u again!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:01:00 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
sch sch sch. 6 hours straight of mugging in the library today followed by Aladdin for 202. at least can relax a bit. came up with our idea for 202. i think it's really cute. need to come up with dialogue which is the tough part. beats editing anytime though.the haze is real bad. like seriously horrendous. no rain till the end of the mth. how depressing. need to think of a place to do filming. how is it possible for outdoor shots in this lousy weather? alternatives alternatives..
econ quiz tmr. no mood for anything. i am still thinking about my wisdom tooth. price of smile= $4000. it keeps depreciating.. it's depressing.. i need my consult soon. i guess i'll call to make an appt tmr. SUCKS. maybe i shall remove it during the e learning wk. since i'm gonna be home all week and suffering anyway. thats if they can fit me in then.. :( sigh...
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:36:00 PM
sch sch sch. 6 hours straight of mugging in the library today followed by Aladdin for 202. at least can relax a bit. came up with our idea for 202. i think it's really cute. need to come up with dialogue which is the tough part. beats editing anytime though. the haze is real bad. like seriously horrendous. no rain till the end of the mth. how depressing. need to think of a place to do filming. how is it possible for outdoor shots in this lousy weather? alternatives alternatives..
econ quiz tmr. no mood for anything. i am still thinking about my wisdom tooth. price of smile= $4000. it keeps depreciating.. it's depressing.. i need my consult soon. i guess i'll call to make an appt tmr. SUCKS. maybe i shall remove it during the e learning wk. since i'm gonna be home all week and suffering anyway. thats if they can fit me in then.. :( sigh...
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:36:00 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
another wk has passed with me slacking the whole weekend away. i'm so much more productive during weekdays. lets see.. i swam and suntanned in the haze w shawn. gave tuition. had our nice bah chor mee at 85 which involved 30+mins of waiting. had my crispy seafood egg noodle at sakura which i haven't had in ages. and a lot of time wasted attempting to read my notes and stuff. the only productive part is that i watched 3 episodes of grey's and some more episodes of gong x2. did not finish gong. decided i was wasting time cuz i'll probably watch it on tv as well. and i'll watch it again with shawn when exams are over.mulling over my wisdom tooth now. i need a consult. it's affecting the shape of my teeth. and therefore it affects my smile. I LOVE TO SMILE. and my smile cost 5000 bucks. so if i dun remove them. my smile will cost LESS. and thats not worth it. somebody tell me the cheapest place to get them removed. i NEED TO DO IT. current value of my smile: $4500. it's blardee depreciating!! headache.. i bet someone out there understands my plight.
and i so need to hit my books now. sucks..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:07:00 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
met up with bro today! after so damn long. he still looks the same. stick thin and positively gay. obviously he's not.. but still.. :) amazed at how we can still hang around each other comfortably even though we dun meet up often. perhaps a part of you is still stuck in that sec sch phase. some things nv change..tt guy cracks me up.. his wide eye proclaimations of wanting babies. tons and tons of them. how he wants to make babies now! (if it's possible). n how i think he shld go about finding someone to make babies for him.. possibilities tt cud possibly bring a few families together and closer connections between us!!! about 3 hours of nonsense and with both of us coughing and sneezing and enjoying ourselves.. somehow it'll all be different when he goes overseas.. sigh..
i feel much worse now.. perhaps its the added flu bugs from terence. my throat hurts more. blahblah.. I FORGOT MY BABY'S BIRTHDAY!! till shawn reminded me.. baby was brought into this family 1 year ago. and he's still happily running on his wheel right this moment. we're going to buy him a cake. and perhaps a leash!! imagine a hamster on a leash!! that idea is so damn appealing.. hahaa..
god.. i so wanna watch gong again!! i think i'm going to do that this moment. hahaa.. it's so nice. i'm a korean junkie.. need inspirations for 202.. arhz...
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:45:00 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
feeling better already. i'm strong man!! went to bed after taking some medicine and woke up feeling quite alright. yeah!!decided against going for econs lec tmr. gotta wait for 3 hours before econ lec starts cuz 224 is cancelled. rosemary claims that she's giving us time to finish up our work. more like she's trying to slack. whatever it is.. i'm not going.. hopefully i wun screw up the econs quiz!! :))
i finished doing my 224 paper!! now all i need to do is to type it out and do some editing and probably cut down everything by 50%. too sian..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:56:00 PM
Monday, October 09, 2006
sick.. gonna be awfully sick soon.. trying to see if i can get econ notes from my tut mate so i can just skip the lect this wed. that'll mean going to sch for 1h for econ tut and going home.. but beats hanging around in sch feeling crappy..when u're sick, u dun really feel hungry and u dun feel full.. i had meatballs and chicken wings from ikea and i'm paying back now.. (the wings are killing my throat)! This is the price for eating!! maybe i shld sew my mouth up so i wun have to eat and suffer later. SUCKS!!!
if it makes my face shrink.. then i wun mind.. really.. :)))
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:17:00 PM
i caught the bug from shawn.. woke up this morning feeling my throat.. and my nose is wonderfully blocked too.. thanks dear.. i have TWO presentations today.. and i dun even feel like talking.. but hopefully it wun be a prob.. sitting in front of my laptop with my bowl of instant prawn noodles. it's tasteless.. and i made the mistake of adding in that red colour oil thinking it'll add some taste to it. and it sucks.. really.. what a disatisfying lunch.. bah.. so many unaccomplished stuff.. i need to sit down and do them during the 6h break tmr given that i dun konk out and die in front of shui.. :(
life sucks..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:45:00 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
went to watch xiao hong hua today, it's this chinese artistic film which is really symbolic.. it talks about this little boy Fang Qiang Qiang who is sent to this kindergarden and how he adapts to his environment. it's a reflection of communist China then-- how the kids were ordered to do things, how everyone lines up to poop and pee (they're like forced to do it when the teacher tells them to) and how the teacher kept telling them what is gd for them (total propaganda)! There is also this system of reward for those who behave and punishment for those who din. So this boy was punished and was confined in this cell. The kindergarden felt like a prison. and there's this part which showed soldiers marching and the kids in twos imitating them. anyway.. the film is rather dark.. and rather chim.. some parts i still dun get.. but it's not a bad film.. just kinda draggy..anyway.. we watched the movie at picture hse. and there's ben and jerry's there. we heard some band playing and as we approached the parlor... we decided to walk away.. seriously.. i've nv heard such PAINFUL music before. like seriously PAINFUL. so PAINFUL that i can't stand there for like a minute to pick out the ice cream that i want. so we were there for 1 minute, and we left with no ice cream and sore ears. WE COULD STILL HEAR THAT GUY ON THE ESCALATOR. His rendition of 'In the Shadows' was SO BLARDEE BAD!! totally off key and everything. i'm sorry dude.. go home and practice somemore b4 u play in public.. what were they thinking?!
i bought another top!! yes.. the grey top from m)phosis!! ahhaa.. it's a top but it can also be a dress.. the top is rather loose fitting and the bottom is tight. i thought it looked gd as a 1 piece but shawn thot otherwise.. whatever it is.. i like it.. i think i've been spending a bit on clothes.. so need to save for bangkok.. yes.. i'm still going in dec. i think my welfare state is going broke too.. yes dear.. i know.. hahaa..
it's the end of the wk.. how sucky is that.. accomplished a bit. but not a lot.. so want to finish everything. my target.. by next wkend. so need to come up with a gd idea for 202. i think foo tee tuan is expecting quite a bit.. sigh.. i need my muse..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:27:00 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
the haze is in my house! i can't even see my tv clearly.. that is how bad it is.. and i can blardee feel my throat! this is not gd considering i have a presentation coming monday and i've not rehearsed for it! toot*i saw another sth that i like.. there is this grey top dress thingy at m)phosis.. i so need to try it on!! thanks to dear who wanted to go home.. bah! he's sick again!!!!! it's getting irritating. him falling sick all the time. hahaa.. yes!! i'm going to abandon u!! u hear me??!! hahaa.. he deserves it la.. stuffed himself silly with mooncakes.. somehow i just dun like mooncakes.. U LOOK LIKE A MOONCAKE DEAR!! ahhaa...
i'm dying.. really.. the haze is killing me!!! arhz.. i so wanna do a protest! STOP THE HAZE!!!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:09:00 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
i'm done with gong1!! ok.. thanks to shui, i'm a korean serial junkie! spent like the past few days chionging the whole series. went for tuition today and my kid said that my face looked a lot smaller. concluded it's all the crying. MY FACE STORES WATER!!! but at least i know what works now! :)ok.. it's about time to like start clearing my assignments.. been procrastinating for the past few days cuz of the show! ahaha.. excuses excuses excuses.. not tt backdated but i wanna get over and done with everything b4 the prep for exams start. how sucky.. 201 claims a few each sem.. how scary is that.. pls don't let it be me..
i hope my face dun expand.. pls dun expand..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:33:00 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
i am officially suay. happily did my 202 assignment during the break. to find out that 4 people in my tutorial grp had the same theme. and my presentation is next wk. SO I BLARDEE HELL GOTTA CHANGE REDO MY ASSIGNMENT!! i mean.. i can choose not to, but i dun want to jeopardize it man.. sucks.. luckily i found the pics tt i wanted. i dun think anyone will use this idea now. bah!so anyways.. filled to the brim with stuff to do. i'm certain i'll explode soon. everything is driving me crazy. i'm declaring myself an EXTRA free day tmr due to the bad air n how it affects my poor health. and what shall i do at home? research. fix my presentation. read my stupid notes. LIFE SUCKS. can't get better than this..
had a nice chat with jingli before class today. long break was killing me. shui went for tuition class and i had to survive the 6 hour break quite alone.. life life life.. sometimes u just dunno what to expect and what to want..
VCD TIME!! haha..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:19:00 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
i think in my grogginess this morning.. i stepped on a lizard and maimed it. after which, i thought i saw a lizard (i still dunno if i stepped on it) and decided to take a closer look at it. and OF CUZ. it was a lizard. so i drowned it in baygon! if uguys have tried killing lizards before, u shld know they dun die becuz of baygon.so there i was.. standing there with my baygon staring at the struggling lizard. it still din really die.. and i stood there for another like 10 mins thinking of how to get rid of that lizard. it was at the side of my door for goodness sake. if i dun get rid of it, i wun be here using my laptop typing this blog and doing other million stupid things. i actually contemplated using a plastic box to cover it so i dun have to look at it and someone will clear it for me later. but well.. so.. after consulting dear on it.. i used the paper towel and covered the lizard, then swept it into the dustpan and i flushed it down the toilet bowl!!!! i felt so accomplished!! so anyways.. it's 9.46am, i ran 4km and read 1 set of my pathetic econs notes.. n i still got more to do.. sucks..
welcome back to sch.
Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:46:00 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
went to bugis just now! they are having this super sale right now. not sure till when. so anyway.. everything is like on 20% discount! luckily we went out in the end. so anyways.. i finally got my grey shirt from topshop! and also... this retro dress which is so way over the top but i like it so much! i hope not alot of pple will wear it out.. but anyway i dun think many can carry that off. shall take pictures and put it up soon!dear dear bought 2 teeshirts.. there's one with my name on it! hahaa.. but it's damn provocative. quite funny.. we spent 200+ bucks there. but at least we got a 10 bucks voucher and discounts from toni and guy. i need my trim.. the bob is like in a mess already..
MAF is next sat.. who's going? maybe will drop by to feel the huachong spirit. ahhaa.. and my dear dear can have his mooncakes.. do they have the chocolate truffle mooncake? hahaa... think it'll be quite interesting to see pple tt i know in hc. what a long time ago..
still not looking forward to sch.. i'm thinking of su-ing 224. rosemary sucks.. her paper is not worth studying for.. :(
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:23:00 PM
god.. i have pple reading my blog? like seriously? anyways... yesterday was spent pigging out!! prata for brunch. seafood bbq for dinner and bowling after tt. no. we did not have our bbq as planned. mab was SWARMED with work and she can't even spare the time for dinner. so we cancelled in the end. MABEL LEONG!! u better keep your word and organise another one soon! before we are all buried in our sch stuff and whatever.
last day of hols.. i'm wallowing in denial. i dun wanna go back to sch. i dun wanna do my assignments and all the crap. i'm so looking forward to exams NOT!
night at timbre. red face and all
DND. at tcc instead.
dear posing for my 202 assignment
my wonderful traffic light. nice angle rite! haha.. FRAMING!!
too lazy to upload anymore..