Wednesday, June 29, 2005

i'm so absolutely dozing off! cuz the smart us decided to watch spiderman on vcd last night (early this morning) and we only slept for a few hours b4 waking for breakfast and me for work. BAH. my eyes are half shut. TERRIBLE!!!
2nd last day at work. i can't wait for it all to end! just tt it'll be a considerable cut in my bank account from now onwards. so i gotta cut down on my shopping. where is my sugar daddy? BAH. speaking of which i just bought 2 mango tops. still thinking if i shld get this orange top which is aparently too big for me but i'm into the bohemian look now and i love baggy tops which are TOO BIG for me. despite the fact tt i gotta be pulling it onto my shoulders every now and then, i love them! hahaa.. n i dun care if i look like a stick in them cuz i think it's NICE.

gonna cut my hair later. maybe i'll do the waves thingy. no idea. we'll see.. hopefully it wun turn out too bad. :)) CS camp next wk. i'm only gonna be going for like the first 2 days i think. i need more time with him b4 sch reopens. n we're flying to bangkok after tt! shopping!! ok.. no more shopping for next yr!

ok.. my cranky colleague just arrived. she's really weird. ok. back to work. bah@

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:55:00 AM

Monday, June 27, 2005

he's out he's out!! yippie. no more book-ins and book-outs.
gave him a surprise yesterday! went with his parents to go pick him up. n all along he thought i was at my uncle's place having dinner. poor him was sulking the whole day cuz he wanted to drop by my place after his book-out to see me but i told him i wouldn't be home. so yeap! he was kinda shocked to see me in his parents' car. :)
breakfast bought with love this morning. will be having lunch bought with love later. grins* i'm so so lucky..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:19:00 AM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

women are the most vicious creatures in the world. scary.. i think the pple are work are a bit nutty. and there is this girl who is really 'cranky'. like seriously.. she can say very weird stuff like how she wants to be a bitch cuz she had enough of pple bullying her, and how she will take revenge, how she wanna like tear the skin off her foes. she is seriously weird.. and there's the really weird boss who apparently has been bad mouthing her own subordinates in front of the BIG BOSS. i've heard so much i'm sick to the stomach with things like tt.. it's a war here. i feel like switzerland. (the one in the past tts neutral tt is, she is no longer neutral RITE?)

sat n i'm working night shift till 7pm. and there is absolutely NO ONE here.. except me and my colleague and we're both surfing the net and doing silly things even though the camera is staring at us. i think my BIG BOSS is watching us in his room but we can't be bothered. speaking of which, i think they're cheating me of my pay. cuz my cpf contributions haven't been in. i'm gonna call cpfb early monday morning so that they can do sth about the stupid company. CHERYL WILL STAND UP FOR HER RIGHTS n PAY! bah. moral of the story: DO NOT CHEAT CHERYL. SHE IS NOT AS DUMB AS SHE SEEMS.

i need to jog again later cuz i just had potato chips even though i was trying to stop myself frm doing so. bah.. bad bad bad.. ok.. i'm jumping in front of the camera! i hope THE BIG BOSS sees this. bah!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 4:26:00 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

Cheryl the silly me is trying to go on a diet. PEOPLE! PLEASE DO NOT BUY XANDO REPLACEMENT MEAL DRINK!!! it tastes like crap. whoever wanna try it can get it from me cuz there's no way i'll put tt thing into my mouth! what an absolute waste of money! seriously.. bah.. next up, slimming pills. will let u guys know the results! ahaha.. i'm nuts!! any gd brand to recommend? hhaa.. i got this herbal diet supplement already.. n maybe i'll get extrim or sth. just for the fun of it. anyway tt taste n texture of the drink is still in my mouth. doubt i'll feel like eating. gonna survive on liquids.. think pills will be a better alternative. at least NO TASTE!

anyway went for my medical checkup. saw serene and lingkai. CS-mates! anyway the pple look quite dead.. sigh.. pls dun let me be stuck in a lousy class AGAIN. hopefully will be in the same grp w shui n jane. not really looking forward to CS camp. will only go for selective days. then i'll be off to bangkok! i can't wait.

am gonna cut my hair soon. i dreamt tt i cut my hair myself and it became really short and i donated my hair to make wigs. i guess i watched too much tv tt stuff gets etched in my brain for too long. WHATEVER.

MY BIG BOSS just installed like cameras around the office. u know.. one of those black semisphere thingy tt can get a 360 view of the place. and we have it like in the office and outside the office as well. so he'll know where we are exactly n what we're doing. bah! gd thing i'm going off le.. heehee..

'i spy with my little eye..'

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:54:00 AM

Monday, June 13, 2005

thank you for loving me when i'm weak. thank you for loving me when i'm strong. thank you for loving me when i'm learning to be strong. thank you for loving me when i pretended to be strong.
thank you for being there when i'm breaking apart, thank you for being there when i'm holding on, thank you for being there when i needed you and thank you for being there even when i don't need you to be there.
thank you for pushing me on when i'm giving up, thank you for not giving in to my ways when i'm wrong, thank you for giving in SOMETIMES when i whine, thank you for giving me so much..
Thank you darling.. :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:46:00 AM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

bubbles are beautiful n pretty but at the same time they are so fragile and they break at a touch. kinda like relationships ya?

sometimes u gotta make sacrifices in a relationship. like give up some stuff in order to make the other party happy. Too much of it is no gd of cuz, but there's a need to do tt SOMETIMES. i know i shldn't be selfish or be self centered, i know i shld be more understanding n stuff, i know all of that but sometimes i just wanna be selfish and give up the way i live my life, tt with unfettered abandon. i wanna be be, i wanna be free, i dun want to be restricted. i hate tt kinda oppression, the suffocation, the inability to do and say what i want. i wonder if i make a gd gf sometimes.. i guess i don't. i'm trying already, sometimes it's really tiring to try. i guess it's harder for him.. i'm trying!!! so anyway.. cheryl is not to go clubbing anymore. unless it's some impt function or sth. (pubbing is fine, just dun let him know..) he gave up alot for me so i guess i shld do sth as well.. Becuz of tt, i got into a bit of trouble w him. but all is fine now. it's gd to talk it thru.. been spending time w him these few days cuz he's out of camp since wed. nice to have breakfast together, then lunch, then dinner blahbahblah.. i got a bouquet from him yesterday! and i'm gonna convince him i need my topshop top and my bubble gun and bubble car! heheeehee.. and i got his card w me and i know his access code as well.. MAYBE i can do a bit of shopping! hahahaa..

bk trip is more or less settled thanks to mabs darling and of cuz my dear. i simply can't be bothered to go meddle with all the bookings and stuff. so yeap.. PLS DO NOT ASK ME TO BUY STUFF BACK FOR U GUYS cuz i simply dun have enough space for my own stuff. wahahhaaa... i'll see what i can do.. can't wait.. shopping, eating, spas and massages. WOOOhhOOoo.. i'm gonna shop till i drop then wake up to breakfasat in bed cuz he promised to get breakfast for me while i sleep. :) i'm a happy girl.. AGAIN..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:26:00 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Yesterday while i was going to ICA (cuz of work purposes), i saw those metal strips again! and this time, it was leading to this whole huge barrier thingy! seriously wondering if they're trying to kill the blind.

did i tell anyone tt i'm on a massive diet plan? actually it's NOT working. but i shall try nevertheless. admin job sucks cuz it adds on extra flabs around ur tummy and everywhere waist down! so yah.. i'm like stuck in between 32 and 34, as in the size for mango. so i can't buy my mango pants! :( ok.. way to save money yeah. anyway i was cranky and i was going on and on abt my diet when i was shopping with np. she really thinks tt i'm nuts. we were shopping in bugis, trying to find an alternative to expensive shopping. CONCLUSION: our bodies can only fit expensive clothes, which means we must starve ourselves to buy those clothes cuz apparently uni kids are poor! ahhaa.. where's my sugar daddy?! ok... actually i came up with tt conclusion and she thought i was hilarious. bah! dun feel like going bangkok anymore cuz it made me so depressed shopping yesterday. What if bangkok is totally like bugis? then i'll have nothing to buy! BAH!!

Things to do: 1) SLIM DOWN (to fit into my 32 mango pants) 2) get my mango pants 3) get my topshop denim 3 quartz 4) alter my jeanS.. i have so many to alter.. BAH.. (do u think they can alter the levis engineered jeans? like major alterations?) 5) STOP SPENDING MONEY!! ok.. this is terrible... i can't bear the thought.. WHERE IS MY SUGAR DADDY!!! BAH BAH!!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:16:00 AM

Monday, June 06, 2005

RANDOM THOTS

1) was walking from cityhall mrt to work. noticed small holes being drilled on the tiles. i was wondering where these holes will lead to, so i was following them. then i realised it was leading to the toilet. ok.. it's actually for the blind. u know those metal strips thingy. they haven't installed it yet. hm.. those holes did not lead to the escalator. don't the blind need to get out of the station or sth? how do they do tt? seriously i can't imagine how i'd get out if i can't see. maybe i shld try it one day.. like blindfold myself..

2) when u receive msgs from me like out of the blues, it means tt u just came into my mind all of a sudden. meaning tt i saw sth or heard sth or recalled some stuff tt brought u back into my head or sth of tt sort. NO MOTIVES AT ALL. according to 'somebody', when pple msg u out of the blues, they have some ULTERIOR motive of some sort. how absurd is tt. but then again somepple may think tt way so yeap.. I HAVE NO MOTIVES!

3) kids are really amusing sometimes. like there's this little china girl who sits with me when her mum is attending her eng class. she'll be here till i leave this company cuz she's on hols. anyway.. kids are fascinating little creatures bcuz they're so amazed at how things work. like how the liquid paper works? n how to use the computer and things like tt.. i wonder what goes on in the little minds. ok.. we were once like tt.. pt taken. Conclusion: it's ok to be spastic at times, cuz we're all born like tt.. just tt some pple are MORE spastic MOST of the time. tts wat makes them idiots..

i'm just a bit cranky. maybe cuz it's our 4th mth and he's not around. BAH.. HAPPY ANIVERSARY TO MYSELF! cuz he's not here.. BAH BAH!!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:35:00 AM

i'm slacking again. cuz the 'cat' went to ICA. heehehee.. n i'm accumulating my work so tt when she's here i can be seen doing work. tink* how brilliant!
becuz of my gian-ness, we almost went clubbing on sat. 'almost' meaning we were there already, but in the end we decided not to go in. basically we were just roaming down town w/o a clue in our head as to where we're heading. in the end we just bought drinks frm 7-11 n walked around w my face glowing like nobody's business. got a lil high and started pestering them to go to zouk. and ber refused to drive there and so we ended up going HOME. AND I ALMOST DIED. it's really scary to take ber's car. why? cuz he drives and curses and swears SIMULTANEOUSLY like ALL THE TIME. haha.. and stupid alan is freaking lousy at giving directions and we almost collide into this oncoming taxi cuz we took a left turn out of the carpark and we went in the opp direction! lucky the cab was going really slowly and the cabby honked at us or we'd have died. n so we gotta reverse and ber went up the curb. n tt goondu lost his way home from my place. i'm so amazed at his sense of direction. so yeap. TERENCE: i did not club. so u can't ignore me. ha!

i'm now fair and fat and gross! cuz stupidgirl couldn't go tanning w me. blah.. spent the whole day sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.. what a way to spend my weekends..

funny how memories can play with ur mind. overloaded with scenes from the past. kinda confused now. am i living in the extension of my past or am i living in the unknown present? ok.. i'm confusing u.. tts the whole idea. BAH!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:22:00 AM

Friday, June 03, 2005

ok.. here i am, in my 'mousetrap'. the cat is away so i can like slack now.. changed my seat again. now i'm sitting beside my boss(not the fat pompous man). The stupid thing about my workplace is tt, the cubes are not really cubes. so almost everyone can see what everyone is doing. like DUMB. anyway i'm like dying.. cuz i only got 3 hours of sleep b4 coming to work. met up with the optic girls last night at dbl o. quite an interesting night. anyway we stayed till closing and the smoke almost killed me while we were waiting to get our bags.

Events of the night: 1. WE SAW TRANS! and they are not hot AT ALL! like fat and gross.. ok.. i'm not against them but those are WOW. and they were staring at us. haha.. 2. there are so many malays ard. and there's this really gross malay guy who was really sleazy. he tried to get close to char, then i grabbed her and danced with her. then he called me a LESBIAN! nutter.. then he started gyrating with the TRANS. then he started grinding one of them. and GUESS WHAT! tt 'SHIM' grabbed his hands and put them on 'her BOOBS'. hell of a sight! i wonder how it feels.. seriously.. hahaha! 3. we had grps of pple following us the whole night. pple must have thought we were nuts cuz we kept changing places to dance. and yah.. char n i got picked up a couple of times during the night. the unfortunate always happens when i'm with her. and no char, tt black shirt guy is not as hot as shawn! tt silly girl actually asked me to give them my number. 4. char stepped onto her BLOUSE. i dunno how she did it but she fell! wahahhaa.. then she pretended she was drunk! 5. jeff came and treated us all to drinks. i turned super red and my face was like a toaster (as usual) but it was so fun. ok.. i am damn gian already.. we shld do it again. But anyway.. i washed my hair 3 times and the smoke is still there! i can't stand the smell. and now even my nostrils are polluted! cuz i keep smelling cigarettes! GROSS.. trying to drink lots of water to flush it down.

Talked to him for a while cuz he went back to camp for a few hours. now he's outfield again. gonna talk to him about our overseas trip once he gets back. i can't wait. prob going bangkok with him and mabs and rainna. i wanna go HONGKONG!! bah.. maybe during sem break or sth.. yippie..

OH. i accepted mass comm in the end. cuz everyone thinks tt it's more 'ME' and i think it'll be more interesting as compared to chem eng. so pple.. wish me luck! GSS is here but i'm not in any mood to shop. there's nth i wanna get! come on.. are those fashion designers doin their job? where are all the nice stuff? :(