Tuesday, February 22, 2005

heyo! i'm back.. hahaa.. haven't been updating these days but then again it's ok, cuz everyone is probably too busy to come online and stuff.

updates!! working life is getting really sian.. i guess i need a new job soon. yes.. AGAIN! probably no one will wanna hire me cuz i'll most likely leave in a month. i need sth more stimulating than this.. though it can get really challenging when there's alot to do, but these days it's really.. SIAN!! i'm just openly stoning at the contact lens department, behind the counter, at the display or just any corner of the shop and yes.. in the pantry as well! soon i'll be stoning in the lab or in the eye test room! i'm crap.. bah..
regine has embarked on mission impossible. her aim is to NOT bitch about josephine. but then again i think it's quite impossible.. SHE is the most talked about subject in the whole of optics 2000. even mr loh talks about HER! real amazing!! ahhaa.. my bosses bitch too! ALOT! and they can get really kaobei.. which is quite funny, when i'm not the one getting the shit that is.. they usually niao me when i do sth wrong.. so it isn't tt bad.. yes.. SMALL GIRLS get away with anything, most of the time tt is.. ahaha! oh! mr loh the very strict and fierce boss (so we thought..) is actually a very lame and crappy OLD MAN! just tt day he was crapping with irene and me at the contact lens department. haha.. poor man.. he has nothing to do. seriously.. most of the time he'll be there staring outside, stoning.. sounds like me huh! hahaa.. as for chester.. hm.. i think he's really fake.. i used to think he's nice.. but he's getting crappy. a very shrewd businessman.. i hate this kind of pple.. tt explains why i shld change my job soon! ahhaa.. but i'm lazy.. so, any reccomendations?! hee :)

things are fine btn us.. i am happy when i'm with him.. at least i try to be. nowadays everything is about trying.. if i dun try, i think i wun feel anything sooner or later.. it's like this bug eating away my brain and heart, gonna turn into a vegetable soon, devoid of all emotions and expressions.. i guess i know why i'm feeling this way.. it's just THAT phase.. sigh.. somehow i just can't put in that much.. even though i try to.. how terrible is tt! sigh.. i can only hope he doesn't love me tt much, at least i wun have to try tt hard..

my mission to run everyday has failed! haha.. haven't been running again! just ran today though.. tried to get a tan at the same time. dun think i'ts gonna work really well.. gonna increase the distance each time i run.. at least i'll be TRYING to work out. gonna be catching 'closer' with regine later. if not for tt i'll go run again in the evening.. ahhaa! yesyes.. excuses.. WHATEVER.

off to slack!!

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:53:00 AM

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

it's vdae.. received the nicest bouquet today. delivered right to my workplace.. thanks jian.. it's really nice.. this night is just like the other.. but so many things have changed.. can't help but feel a little ke xi.. just a bit..

my poor darls is in camp.. he was feeling terrible cuz we couldn't spend it together.. what a silly boy.. and he kept saying tt he'll make up to me.. it's not like he hasn't done enough.. could tell he wasn't really pleased when i told him i was going for the singles night at indochine.. in the end we changed our plans, went alley bar for a drink instead.. anyway it's a nice place.. really cool! acid bar looks like a great place to chill too! gonna go clubbing w jolene, regine and char really soon! how interesting!!

i hope i'll treat him gd.. at least try to.. and i hope this is not one of those phases we talked about last night..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:17:00 AM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

quality vs quantity.. seems tt we're having both, for now.. but it wun be for long cuz he's going back in.. shall not get used to the way things are presently..
now i have 4 scars to remember him by.. he was cycling us to pasir ris park, was standing at the back and the tyre cut me lots of time.. thanks to him and his lousy skills.. ahaha! it's so ugly!! and they look symmetrical and self inflicted.. how silly.. the silly boy actually brought along a 'half tent' and a hammock plus snacks and drinks?!! but he forgot to bring one of the supports so we ended up lying ON the tent and not IN it. pple were looking at us like we're idiots.. was just swinging in the hammock enjoying the breeze while he sat there thinking about the stupid tent..

went to the zoo, it's a boring place.. really.. i will not bring my kids there next time. like seriously.. haha.. they can go with their pri sch or kindergarden class. will not be subjected to tt kinda torture AGAIN! ahaha.. just walked around w him and ya.. took lotsa pics.. will be uploading them soon! a moment to remember was stupid. plot wasn't there at all.. not even really sweet.. but still we were grinning when we walked out of the theatre cuz we were feeling quite sweet.. hahaa.. just the lucky, fortunate feeling? hmph..

he dropped by today. passed me the tiramisu he made the night before plus a white tulip and my vdae gift.. yes.. 'ENVY ME'.. how sweet.. gonna smell tt way from now onwards.. but 'happy' still rocks.. :)

silly how pple think of the next wk b4 this wk even ends.. tts us.. :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:46:00 AM

Thursday, February 10, 2005

received the best gift ever just tt day.. dolce vita? i think tts correct ya? sweet memories.. tt will definitely go into my top 10 best gifts received..
thanks for remembering every little thing i've said.. i know i've got a lousy memory and sometimes i dun even remember what i've said before. thanks for being part of those memories. and may i never regret wat i've done.. :)

xie xie ni, jian..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 2:42:00 PM

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

finally bought my vdae prez for him. polo ralph lauren blue. it smells gd on him.. cuz i was too lazy to continue shopping and i needed to pass it to him earlier.. sorry but i'm not cut out to be a gd gf.. i will nv be able to put in as much.. i can never..
anyway.. i hate cny.. seriously..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:48:00 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

i figured out i'll nv be happy again.. and nothing makes any diff to me now.. just terribly in pain.. why is it like tt..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:48:00 AM

i am supposed to be happy.. and i was.. i guess i'm just confused by all the diff emotions bottled inside.. and now i can't feel anything at all.. i wonder if i made the right decision. must say tt it's really abrupt but everything seems so natural.. but now i can't help but wonder if there's a need for me to rush into sth..

met janice and her sis in my shop today! haha.. and we behaved like some stupid bimbos lar! quite a sight.. haven't seen her sis in AGES.. and ya.. we both agreed tt we've become PRETTIER! ahhaa.. and yes.. janice is freaking jealous of me!! i can tell!! after i broke the news to her, she wanted to kill me.. hahaa.. too bad!! :P quite weird though.. imagine being with ur friend's eye candy? hmph..
headache! now it's my turn to crack my brains over vdae prez! np is laughing at me now.. yah.. really have no idea what to get.. anyway polo ralph lauren's BLUE is nice.. maybe i'll get it for him.. gonna attempt to bake as well.. DURING CNY! bet i'm gonna make a mess out of the kitchen and get killed in the process..

somehow i wonder if i'm doing the right thing.. sigh..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:36:00 AM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

yesterday was a happy day! cuz it was PAY DAY! i'm in this excessive compulsive mood which spurs me on to arrange all the specs on the display. and i'm totally going nuts cuz everything is so MESSY!! yes i am a perfectionist.. so, REGINE AND CHAR AND EVERYONE ELSE, DO NOT MESS UP MY DISPLAY!! hahaa..
i feel this innate urge to bitch about josephine! she is totally irritating! can't she get a life instead of bugging us or hanging ard us. i hate her pettiness and her incessant complains! it is totally killing everyone.. i am trying really hard not to openly display tt i dun like her. but it's showing. I AM A MONSTER! once she crosses tt limit, she will be dead meat.. i'm gonna give her HELL!! man i'm a bitch.. wahaha..
went window shopping w xiaohong during my dinner break. so nice of him to accompany me.. din see anything nice though. sucks.. after work was spent w regine and char at forever21. haha.. they are really gd shoppers.. basically i stood there watching them while talking on the phone. and changing and talking on the phone. walking and talking on the phone. i think they all wanna kill me cuz i'm always on the phone.. i will try not to do tt so often..
irene's friend, jeff, tt supplier from dunno which company dropped by yesterday to pass her drinks from coffee club. really nice of him to get another one for me. but then it caused some.. hm.. unhappy feelings from SOME of the seniors.. ahaa.. office politics.. i'm gonna stay out of it..

sometimes it's much easier not knowing anything. then again u wun feel anything.. what about this? knowing everything and feeling nothing. i'm numb. it's starting from my toes.. and it's taking over.. i hope i dun do anything rash in this numbness.. life is all about choices.. i just hate to make any..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:21:00 AM

Friday, February 04, 2005

The One You Love- Glenn Frey

I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

the song he sang me on the longest night of this year.. depicts perfectly the situation we're in now..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:46:00 AM

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

i finally bought some stuff today! yippie! i love shopping with np! hahaa.. not tt mab is a lousy shopping kaki.. just tt i was really lazy on sunday! finally found the spirit to shop! woohoo.. bought 4 tops and 2 skirts.. heeheehee.. ohh!! know what!! I LOVE gucci's 'envy me' and 'RUSH2'!! THEY SMELL SOooOooooOOo NICE!! hint hint* ahhaa.. not gonna be getting them now cuz i'm quite broke after my shopping spree.. not quite done with my shopping though.. np finally bought her gift for johnny.. it's truth from ck i think.. and we finally met leona for like less than an hour!! i love her hair!! gonna be meeting her during cny, b4 she leaves.. sucks.. ahhaa..
vdae sucks.. i dun wanna go get presents for pple.. but i think i will eventually.. ahaha i'm such a sweetie rite?! whatever.. presents presents presents.. drop me some money pls.. thanks!! hahaa..
so bored!!! i dun wanna go back to work!! :(

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:36:00 PM

i just had my off day on sunday and i'm getting another off day today! how STUPID. going to meet nanping for shopping later, after my stupid lesson at workplace! can't believe i still gotta wake early to attend lessons when it's my OFF DAY!! well.. dun suppose i'll be staying in this job for long.. then again it depends on the availability of the teaching job at punggol pri.. cw said the woman shld call me soon.. i hate changing jobs again.. but i wouldn't mind the short working hours and the free weekends which could be better spent with ahem and ahem and more AHEMS.. ahaha..

learning to slack at work. having loads more fun. touching each other and stuff!! ahhaa.. details to tt on regine's blog.. ahaha.. gross stuff basically.. i've kissed char on her lips, and i've been touched by everyone basically.. we do this openly! ahaha.. me baring my chest, char exposing her cleavage, sam touching our butts, irene testing the bounciness of our boobs.. hahaa.. it's stupid and so funny at the same time.. ok.. we're gross.. but i dun really care.. wats wrong yah? ahaha.. starting to have lesbian tendencies.. ok.. bisexual tendencies.. cool man!

can't wait for the long hols during cny.. gives me time to spend w my friends n stuff.. speaking of which i need to be shopping! tried shopping on sun but i can't find anything worth me buying! maybe i will just get tt billabong skirt.. shall see how later.. gonna be shopping w np for vdae prez.. how nice to be single.. dun need to bother about giving prez on vdae.. shall just get for my colleagues or sth.. hahaa.. vdae is so commercialised, lost all its meaning and purpose.. like seriously.. gd thing it's gonna be a weekday and i hope i'll be working on tt day.. at least i wun have to bother abt spending it w anyone or sth..

i am so shagged.. yawns..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:30:00 AM