Saturday, October 30, 2004

my eyes are reduced to slits. seriously.. i can't see very well now. attempt to study terribly failed. din do much at the airport yesterday. we spent like a few hours bitching ard. grace joined us and we were just laughing and talking nonsense n eating the cake i bought for wen. quite fun.. and till now we're still struggling with our mugging at jing's place.
ooh.. she's really nice! first time she actually cooked sth for us. usually we will have to cook for her, then wash up after her. blahblahblah. and usually it's just instant porridge or instant noodles.. today we had beehoon! wow!! ahhaa.. quite fun lar.. too bad the rest aren't here.. haha actually we din ask anyone else.. oops.. mab dun kill me! it was kinda last min..
ok.. gotta get back to reading my stuff.. econs.. it's gonna put me right to sleep.. snooze..

nobody said it was easy..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:21:00 AM

Thursday, October 28, 2004

recently i've developed an interest in putting my thoughts in a diary. cuz tts the only place i can pour my emotions into without having pple to judge me or sth. and yah.. there're things i nv wanna say. things i can't get over. stuff i go thru everyday which made an impact. mab said tt it's wrong to keep things to myself, so i write them in my diary. yah.. he gave it to me. just 5 mths ago. on this very day.. how time flies. how fast things changed. maybe it's the best way out. but i wonder how long it'll take b4 the pain will finally go away.. i din think i wud be so affected. but i guess i was wrong.. nvm.. doesn't matter now..
been praying alot these days. i pray for god to give me the courage to move on. to be determined. to be strong.. i know i can.. i hope i do..
i hope the theory of dilution works..
wenz bdae today.. n apparently she screwed up her prac. gonna spend tmr and next with her and jing. hope it'll be fun. like in the past.. if only i could turn back time..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:28:00 PM

The way you look tonight - Frank Sinatra

Some day, when i'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'cause i love you ... just the way you look tonight.



Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:14:00 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

farewell pics are up.. lalalaa..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:11:00 AM

Thursday, October 14, 2004

i'm gonna be determined. (hm.. can u even decide on this kinda shit?) not making sense. but well.. gonna study really hard from now on!! allalaa.. i'm gonna remain positive and strong. can't find the song to rep how i'm feeling now.. but yah.. there's nothing cheryl can't get over..
last day of sch tmr.. i'll miss vj.. will always remember how i dreaded coming to sch. how i so dun wanna be here.. how i cried everyday for the first wk i was here. then things got better.. thanks to my dearies.. -cw, pui, cz, yufee, zhuang, bang, da, caomei and taohua(for making me laugh). MAB!! my consultant.. who loves me so much.. ahaha n i love her too.. eunice my darling, the one who listens to my complains after trainings.. wei,stace,sha,christel,shella blahblah.- the pple who shared the same dream.. i really do miss hockey.. and i miss u guys.. and other peeps.. Aly- who made my life more bearable. ur mood rubs off me.. thanks.. jaz megan- our dream to rule the indians!! take over cricket.. ahhaa.. thanks for bringing laughter to my life when i was very down.. i miss riding on the merry go round at parkway.. let's do it again!! hahaa.. and of cuz.. him- thanks for being there. sorry things din work out.. stay happy ya..
found the song already..

Ain't no mountain high enough

If you need me, call me. no matter where you are, no matter how far. just call my name. i'll be there in a hurry. on that you can depend and never worry.
(you see, my love is alive it's like a seed that only needs the thought of you to grow. so if you feel the need for company, please, my darling, let it be me. i may not be able to express the de
F the love i feel for you, but a writer put it very nicely when he was away from the one he loved. he said down and wrote these words:)

No wind, (no wind) no rain, (no rain)
Nor winter's cold
Can stop me, babe (oh, babe) baby (baby)
If you're my goal

No wind, no rain,
Can stop me, babe
If you wanna go

I know, i know you must follow the sun
Wherever it leads
But remember
If you should fall short of your desires
Remember life holds for you one guarantee
You'll always have me

And if you should miss my love
One of these old days
If you should ever miss the arms
That used to hold you so close, or the lips
That used to touch you so tenderly
Just remember what i told you
The day i set you free

Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough (say it again)
Ain't no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough (say it again)
Ain't no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Ain't no mountain high enough
Nothing can keep me
To keep me from you

Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough (one more time)
Ain't no river wild enough (say it again)
To keep me from you

Ain't no mountain high enough
Nothing can keep me
To keep me from you

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:11:00 AM

Single- Natasha Bedingfield

Oh yeah, this is for all you single ladies out there

Yeah
I'm not waiting around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No, no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand)
No I don't need another hand to make me
(Ho no ho)

Make your move if you want
Doesn't mean I will or won't
(Da-na, ah-ha na)
I'm free to make my mind up, you've either got it
or you don't.

This is my cover: Single status
My Declaration of Independance
There's no way I'm trading places right now
With stars in mean attendance
I'm single
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
That's how I wanna be

Don't need to be on somebody's arm 2 look good
(I'm not who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just cos U say I should
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you're misunderstood

Everything in its right time
Everything in its right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But till then I like it this way
It's my way
Hey, I like it this way, hey

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:21:00 AM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

prelims ended like 2 wks ago. i can't believe how i managed to force myself to study. was actually feeling quite crappy after we got back to sch. cuz everyone around me is just like MUGGING away. so yah.. i was pressured into studying too.. my brain is kinda dying though.. did fairly well for prelims. hopefully it'll get me the scholarship i want. finally got down to my uk application. decided to forgo the us one. it's just too troublesome.. see.. it's just me.. cheryl the lazy girl.. hello! it's 7 forms.. SEVEN! shall forget about cornell.. sigh.. ok.. MUG harder girl.. an A for econs is not impossible.. (so i wish.. ha!)
u're right.. i dunno what i want.. and i nv planned for any of this to happen. so maybe it's just fair tt i still haven't found out what i wanted in the first place? ok.. babbling nonsense cuz my brain isn't working anymore. it's great to spend time with friends.. but i just miss the feeling of having him ard.. guess it isn't really so for him.. dunno..


Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:22:00 AM

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Break Away -Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Fall away, and break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
Gotta make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Building with a 100 floors,
Swinging with revolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on,
Fly away, break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
Tho its not easy to tell you goodbye.
Gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget the place I come from.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Break away, break away

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:49:00 AM