Saturday, August 28, 2004

went for the firefly talk today. gd thing christel msged me to ask if i'm going. i din really wanna go cuz there wasn't anyone to accompany me. :( woke up late, took a cab there, got this driver who doesn't know where's he's going and his cab is like freaking slow. so in the end i gotta stand at the back of the audi with christel (who is also late) for the first part of the talk. quite interesting, got to know a wee bit more about the different boards. hahaa.. guess wat! i'm seriously considering going to further my studies in CHINA!! crazy yah?? but well.. the opportunities are gd. well.. tt still depends on what i wanna do.. yuPZ..
sometimes i hate talking, cuz u dun seem interested in what i have to say. yah.. maybe i'm just too easily irritated.. maybe it's just pms.. maybe it's sth else. i dunno.. i have no idea why i'm crying so much these days, i dun suppose u know too. but it doesn't matter.. u dun have to know..
jogging helps to take my mind off things. cuz i'll be focusing on finishing my run, on working my muscles and abs. looking around, watching kids with their parents, uncles fishing, old couples stroll along hand in hand. tts the way life should be. however, we, being too caught up in our hectic schedules, forget the happiness the simple way of living can bring us.. what a pity.. sigh..

the less i write, the more i keep to myself.. i wonder which is better..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:55:00 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2004

haven't been updating. anyway.. my darling is fine now. :) his immune system is functioning really well. ahhaa.. been slacking for the past few days.. good food, movies, shopping.. blahblah. seems like prelims are over yah? WRONG!! GP IS TMR!! :(( anyway.. went to esplanade library with him yesterday. quite a nice place to study at. din study for long cuz we wanted to catch the tabletennis match on tv mobile. guess wat we did? we took 36 from suntec to town and back to the airport then to town again. spent 2 freaking hours on the bus. our butts were practically rotting frm tt ordeal. and wat.. lee jia wei lost. :(( and yah.. after tt 2 hours on the bus, we headed to seouls garden. ate for like 2 + hours. i almost exploded. ahhaa.. there goes my diet. sigh.. nvm.. i'm determined to go jogging like at least 3 times a wk. and at least 3k each time. went just now.. after like 2 mths of slacking, sleeping and eating, finally got myself moving. and i almost died. my chest felt really tight and i couldn't breathe very well. well.. i managed to hold it there for like 20+mins.. i shall run more. i MUST LOSE WT!!!
ok.. time to sleep.. yawn.. gd luck everybody..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:09:00 PM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

been really worried these days.. he's sick. and it's quite bad. think it's dengue. went to visit him yesterday b4 dinner. he looked terrible and yah.. was running a high fever. din enjoy dinner with di and co cuz i was worrying about him. din sleep well last nite.. checked my phone, got an sms saying tt he's going to the hospital. gave me a scare.. god.. pls bless him. pls let him be alright.. i hope it's nothing too serious.. feeling helpless.. can't do anything for him right now.. sigh..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:32:00 PM

Saturday, August 14, 2004

din go cartel today. went home. no craving for my black pepper ribs. :( isn't this gd? soon i'll be slim!! yeah.. ahaha.. slacked the whole day. finished reading the da vinci code. yawn.. so tiring..
i'm quite motivated to study hard now. why? cuz i wanna get to cornell!! n i can only do so with a scholarship. was checking out the scholarship stuff and yah.. hopefully i'll get the firefly scholarship thingy.. they sent me an invite to the scholarship talk session, quite surprising considering tt i've dropped my 2 S papers for no gd reason. haha.. i must work hard and get my ass out of here!! wish me luck.. :))
poor dar din go to sch again.. i hope he'll recover soon. haven't been seeing him for days.. sigh..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:33:00 AM

Thursday, August 12, 2004

supposed to be mugging for phy test which is on tmr but i can't be bothered anymore. yawn.. so looking forward to lunch tmr with qing and wong. ahhaa.. this time i'm the one who's ps-ing cw hs. hee.. black pepper ribs here i come. my diet plan can wait! :) determined to take only 2 meals a day. breakfast and dinner. yeap.. hopefully i'll slim down. lalala...
major breakout now.. :( and this is gonna last for at least another 2 weeks.. i so wanna hide myself in a hole. :(((( for the sake of nice skin.. this is worth it. it wun last anyway. yeap..
realised tt mugging helps to bond the class. ahaha.. at least the few of us. it's like getting to know each other all over again. sort of.. and instead of mugging, we usually end up gossiping.. vj library is a place for us to socialise. haha.. who really studies there? ok.. sometimes.. or maybe my attention span is too short. i'm too easily distracted. haha..
as new bonds are forged, old ones are broken.. kinda depressing to know that. trying to salvage but i can't be the only one doing it. does it mean anything to u? i'm just wondering.. i dun even know if i care anymore.. whatever..
he's sick again.. he's either injured or sick. pls take care of urself? glad things are fine again. this is like a rollercoaster ride for us. quite exciting though.. ahhaa..
ok.. slacking time..
CENWEI!! GO STUDY! DO UR TUTORIALS!!! HAhahahaaa..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 9:05:00 PM

Sunday, August 08, 2004

cold numb emptiness
left me speechless
searing shot of weariness
flowed into the darkness
the pain inexorable, irreversible.

i've fallen too deep.. fallen so bad..
get me back on ground..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:36:00 AM

Saturday, August 07, 2004

:( i hurt my ankle. stupid me yah? was walking down the stairs with him and i missed the step and landed on my ankle. and it swelled!! now it's the size of a pingpong ball. :((( and with tt stupid swollen ankle, we still went down town. caught the notebook. it's damn gd.. really.. so romantic, so sweet.. thought of him the whole time during the show even though he was beside me.. anyway.. go catch it. it's really nice.. so much better than THE VILLAGE. tt sucks.. seriously..
did sth nice today. on the way home, realised tt someone left his hp on the bus and it was ringing. anyway i picked up the call and got tt guy's friend to inform him to pick him phone up from the interchange, then i passed the phone to the driver. hahaa.. i'm an angel. :))) lalalaa..
time to rest my ankle.. yawn..

ever missed someone even though the person is just beside u? i did..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:55:00 AM

Friday, August 06, 2004

had gathering with diya and ham last nite. haha.. steamboat for 3! how pathetic. cuz yingci and et couldn't make it. :( anyway we finished most of the food. with help from di's bro and his gf. drank white wine too. and we played the guessing game. finished the whole bottle plus some more of bailey's. miss those good old days. watched our plays. sigh.. miss huang cheng..
here at my darling's place again. supposed to be studying but we're eating and watching friends!! oops.. and the lazy pig is hugging his pillow and lying around. so nice to spend time together. time is so precious. we can't afford it though.. sigh..
anyway.. i found out tt he's hiding some stuff from me. so terrible rite? feel so cheated! hahaa.. he's so cute.. :))))

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:50:00 PM

Sunday, August 01, 2004

went to get presents with cz for our wonderful friends, cenwei, huishan and shirley! ahaha.. we can't possible forget cuz u guys kept reminding us!! anyway.. we walked around j8 for like 5+ hours. cz speed is really like.. LAG!!! god.. she's so freaking slow.. can't go shopping with her man.. ahhaha! bought all the stuff.. heehee.. hope they like it.. oh.. we're giving the prez on monday altogether! ahaha.. and it's not even their bdae yet.. hahaa..
oh!! cz and i have similar tastes! so we can go shopping together more often provided she walks faster.. :)
after tt i went to the dermatologist. determined to rid my face of all blemishes. it's gonna take some time.. yah.. and i'm having a breakout now cuz the med is supposed to purge all the stuff inside b4 my face will clear and the blemishes will go away. yeah!! hope it gets better soon. :)