Monday, June 28, 2004

3 more days to end of this crap i have to go thru.
2 papers down, 3 more to go.
3 more days to fun and entertainment and MORE SUN TANNING!! we're going sentosa on friday! again!! heyhey!! it's gonna be a class outing k. pls show some support.. i suggested it. ahhaa! we may be going ktv too! yupz..
it's phy tmr and guess wat! i'm online now! reading a novel at the same time. woow! how impressive. absolutely no sense of urgency at all! cheryl.. u're the ultimate.. hahaa!
watever..
can't wait for this shit to end..
God, let me pull thru this..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:15:00 PM

Saturday, June 26, 2004

wow.. time really flies.. and i'm gonna meet my doom soon. say goodbye to me forever..

the past few days hasn't been anything great. i did lotsa stuff which made him upset. sorry dear.. gotta learn how to be more sensitive towards his feelings. can't always do what i wanna do. realised he has been really accommodating me. i guessed he compromised alot.. i gotta be more appreciative. (not that i'm not now.. but just a lil more.. yeah..) i'm not gonna let other pple affect or influence my decisions. have some faith in me. :) it's gonna be our 1 month ani on monday! how exciting! aahhaa.. i'm a happy girl.. let's just pray that things will stay like tt..

can't remember wat i wanted to say. thought abt lotsa stuff.. hm.. 4get it.. shall go back to watching tv! :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:38:00 AM

Sunday, June 20, 2004

More Than Words - Devotion


Saying i love you, is not the words i want to hear from you
Its not that i don't want you
Not to say but if you only knew
How easy, it would be to show me how you feel
More than words, is all you have to do
To make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you loved me
Cause i'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real

What would you say
If i took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying i love you

Now that i try to
Talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do
Is close your eyes and just reach out your hand

And touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words
Is all i ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
Cause i'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real

What would you say
If i took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying i love you

More than words
More than words
More than words

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:12:00 AM

was on the train home after dinner with david and co. was thinking of some stuff.. about him. it's on days like this when i do think of him. i wonder where is he now. wonder if he's thinking of us, wonder if he still cares..
i hope he is regretting. hope he's feeling guilty. hope he's feeling the pain he caused.
it's been so long.. but somethings just can't be erased.
maybe one day we'll forget what happened. maybe one day we'll be chatting over coffee, talking about our lives, getting to know each other all over again. maybe..
i wonder when that will be. when will i forgive and forget. when will i see you again..

happy fathers' day..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:42:00 AM

Saturday, June 19, 2004

i feel like i'm an oil well.. covered in layers of moisturizing lotion. god.. this is damn disgusting. i'm starting to itch too. this is really bad.. hope i wun peel.. who cares if i gotta be soaked in cream.
had a lousy morning. then he called and played me our song over the phone. though it was kinda out of tune and stuff, but it's so cute.. thanks darling.. really sweet of u. :)
lamed ard with al for abt hm.. 2 pathetic hours today. din do anything constructive. but it was gd seeing him after soooOoo long. take care of urself ya? and.. GROW UP. ahaha! when are u ever gonna do tt? hahaa.. girls prefer serious guys ya? :)

hm.. tmr is gonna be a gd day. study hard peeps.. 2 more wks to go b4 the common tests are over. hang in there! :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:25:00 AM

Friday, June 18, 2004

went to sentosa today. with the brudders and the sisters. this must be the WORST pri sch gathering we have had. soOooooooo boring!! stupid brudders left me olivia and jaz alone for the WHOLE day(except dinner) so crap. but well.. the 3 of us had fun.
got burnt.. wats new.. this is gonna hurt for the next few days.. ouch.. :((
met 62 pple at siloso. they were having their class outing. can't believe they played beach volley the whole day. serious.. but when we saw loyalle n ben foo at delifrance, neither of them look tanned. hahaa.. wonder wat kinda sunscreen they used. they seriously look funny. can't stop laughing when i see them. no idea why.. ahaha!
hope i wun peel.. :)

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:42:00 AM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

i'm nv gonna camp at the airport again. why? cuz i'm a spoilt brat who needs her bed, pillows, bolster and her soft toys 4 company. :P hahaa.. went to study in sch yesterday. plan was to mug all day and night (at the airport). it was terrible. cuz i felt really sleepy but i just couldn't sleep. :( (there weren't any place for me to sleep except the HARD FLOOR) ouch.. :) but i'll do it again, this time i'll camp at starbucks where they have those nice couch for me to sleep in. :) quite an experience. the company is wat tt matters yah? :))))) so nice to spend time together. i wish we'll have more time.. sigh..

i'm starting to think that i'm superwoman! ahaha.. i dun need much sleep to survive. wow! tts new.. took an 1 hour nap at the viewing mall, the rest of the time i just sat there, staring at my notes cuz there wasn't anything else to do (other than watching him sleep..) came home, took another 2 hour nap and tts abt it. i feel really energized.. god.. whats wrong with me!! ahaha..

it's gd to be left alone.. at least u'll be able to think things thru..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 4:56:00 PM

Friday, June 11, 2004

If you have found a smile that is the sweetest one you've known. If you have heard, within a voice, the echoes of your own. If you have felt a touch that stirs the longings of your heart. And still can feel that closeness in the moments you're apart. If you have filled with wonder at the way two lives can blend. To weave a perfect pattern that is seamless, end to end. If you believe some things in life are simply meant to be. Then you have found your soul mate, your heart's own destiny.

how beautiful..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:05:00 AM

Thursday, June 10, 2004

always thought god is fair. some pple have brains and some have looks. hard to come across those with both. so thing is, u dun have the best of everything. but then again, when it comes to the TIME OF THE MONTH, i question the terms of equality btn women and men. why is it that god made women to suffer? i'm sure this is worse than HELL!! the cramps are killing me.. curse that damn thing. I DUN WANNA BE A WOMAN!! all u guys out there, be grateful. if u think god is unfair to u cuz u're BLESSED with those pea brains that can't think for nuts, or that face that will scare the daylights out of anyone, think again. BE VERY GRATEFUL u dun have to go thru this shit.
now now.. u better show respect to the wonderful ladies around u. dun complain when ur girlfriends are having moodswings. when they say it's PMS or whatever, u better try to comfort her or sth. put those peabrains to some good use. and dun give that blardee attitude. we had enough of that every month.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:40:00 PM

hahaa.. haven't been coming online these days. got a shock when i saw the tagboard. thanks peeps, for defending me and stuff. but how come it sounds kinda weird.. u guys seem to imply that i'm really 2 timing or sth like tt but it's ok cuz i'm happy with it. ahhaa.. whatever.. love u guys to bits!! so sweet.. :)

went out to study yesterday. another failed attempt. i can't study outside. it's quite bad.. sorry dear.. anyway.. we went for dinner at hisatomo. maybe i've been too stressed lately, went kinda hysterical and crazy (worse than my usual self tt is..) i started to play with the watermelon seeds. decided it was best to have him hold up some target for me to aim at. so out dear mr ong was holding this small piece of tissue 30cm away from his face (still thinking that i'm a gd shooter) and as i spit the seed out, (kinda gross but yah.. tts how it works), me being such a great phy student, it turned out to be some projectile motion. the SEED flew over the target and hit him straight in his face. his expression was hilarious and i couldn't stop laughing.. seriously.. can u imagine??!?! laughed till i teared, till i got cramps, till everyone in the restaurant turned and stared at me, till the waitress got a shock when i burst out laughing right in her face after trying to control my laughter. made a fool out of myself. i dun usually do this unless i'm with pui and cw. hahaa.. i'm going crazy.. so embarassing.. gd thing there wasn't anyone i know present.. phew* anyway.. we kept tt memorable SEED. ahaha.. interesting.

went to sch today for math make up. can't believe i sat thru 2 full hours of math with chuah. cw wasn't there. pui neither. so boring. but well.. me and yuf were talking nonsense at the back of the class. chuah din even bother to scold us. oh yah.. tt stupid indian was staring at me again!!! so irritating.. he does tt all the time.. YUCKS!! so gross.. hahaa..
oh pui, sorry to hear about ur missing hp, well.. it's ok rite? u're gonna get a new one anyway.. :) can get it earlier then! oh pple!! yufee's bdae is coming soon! next wk!!! let's go SENTOSA on his bdae!!! ahahaa.. wink*

next wk will be a busy wk. gotta meet ham, outing with wen, shopping with mab and diong, suntanning with the bradders blahblahblah.. god.. i need MORE TIME!! oh yah.. there's still ter my dear brother.. and i haven't seen al in ages too.. headache.. so many pple i wanna meet..

tired.. not gonna think. i'll just go meet them in my dreams.. yawn..

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:14:00 AM

Sunday, June 06, 2004

i wonder y pple do stupid stuff like ref(insert 1: tagboard on the rt)
shall save my time and energy on replying stupid comments. as long as i am happy, who gives a shit what u think. u can hate me for all i care. i dun give a damn.
some pple just love to poke their noses into other pple's life. they dun see that their life is damn screwed up and tt there is a greater need to go sort out the mess they created for themselves. instead, they go around creating trouble for pple. I CAN'T HELP IF YOUR LIFE IS SCREWED UP. TOO BAD FOR YOU!!
i'm happy with him. and he's the only one. go on believing wat u want. i can't do anything to ur screwed up brain.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:53:00 PM

I dun wanna think about you - Simple Plan

Can you leave me here alone now
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doin what you say

Cuz I'm tryin to get today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I Don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothin
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
Cuz I know
I don't wanna think about you

Don't wanna think about you


When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cuz I won't wait
Cuz you won't change
And you'll always be this way

Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothin
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down

Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:14:00 AM

Friday, June 04, 2004

i just realised this morning. tt if i wanna get married before 28, i have another less than 10 years to look for that perfect someone for me.. thats so scary!! what if i dun get a chance to see him in this 10 years? what if i married the wrong guy! arhz.. NOOoooOoo.. just getting in touch with my bimbo side. :)))) whatever.. hahaa..

had a weird dream last night.. dreamt of alot of my friends.. i guess dreams reflect reality.. at least it seems so to me..

not gonna be bothered with wat some idiots say abt me. if u dunno whats going on, u shld reserve ur comments.

Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:14:00 PM

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

stuck in this whirpool of emotions. dunno what i'm feeling actually. but i am happy. minus all the guilt and stuff.. i hope you guys will be happy for me..

i think i should be cursed. i should be the one feeling all the pain instead of you. i'm sorry.. i shld just stay away for the time being.. i have no idea when everything will start to go right for us.. just hope it'll be soon n i'll see you smiling again..

dear brother (i hope u are reading this)
i know u're worried abt me. but i want u to know that i've been thinking abt this for a long time. and yah.. i'm happy with the way things are now.. i hope u'll give us your blessings.. hahahaa.. we really shld catch up soon.. u shld call me when you're free.. :)
maybe we can cut our hair together.. maybe i'll wanna change my look. ahhaha!

hammie is back! can't wait to see him. so is olivia! hm.. i really ought to plan my time.. hate mugging.. "life sucks"

Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:36:00 PM