Monday, May 31, 2004
The Reason- Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:58:00 PM
Saturday, May 29, 2004
went up on stage today. sort of prize presentation. this is really the end.. sigh.. i wun be able to play on the small pathetic turf in sch anymore. no more staying back in sch on tues and thurs or any other days b4 pitch trainings.. no more hanging out in the library, no more getting scolded by librarian for making so much noise. sigh.. can't believe this.. i'll miss hockey, miss everyone, miss trainings, even miss seet.. ahaha..
anyway hockey girls got a full day off today while the others only got a half day. actually it din make much of a diff.. yeah..
it's a beautiful day.. the band concert was great, nice one pui and mab! mervyn was real gd! huiqing played a solo too, so amazing man. din get a chance to congratulate her though.. but anyway.. VJ SYMPHONIC BAND, U ROCK! my heart melted when i heard them play hidamari no uta by le couple. the oboeist was fantastic. can't stop smiling after tt..
you're so sweet..
:)
Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:43:00 AM
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Fly Me To The Moon - Frank Sinatra
Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all i long for
All i worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, i love you
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:52:00 PM
WE WON. this is the end. i can't believe it. can't describe wat i'm feeling now. just overwhelmed.. i love u girls.. u guys played well.. yuPZ! and i was glad to be defending even for tt short while. vj hockey 2004, we ROCK!!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:47:00 PM
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
haven't been updating my blog. too caught up with hockey.. anyway for those who still dunno, we won ac 2-1! hm.. tt was like 1 wk ago. ahaha.. tmr is our finals! can't wait.. i hope everyone will play well.. guess i'll be watching from the sideline.. wong, eu, chris, sha: defend well. we're the strongest defence and we're not gonna let rj break our wall ya! wei, flor, fa, pris: "good girls! so proud of u!" ahaha.. remember to run, pass and get pass their defenders kaez! and ya.. we're gonna play a physical and psychological game tmr! just do ur best! qing and becks: show us some nice shots! i know u guys can do it. we'll be watching! we are a team. play for each other. :)
everything has been wonderful.. glad tt everything is smooth sailing now..
i wish i have more time.. like 48 hours a day.. then i'll be able to spend the extra 24 hours with the pple i love, my friends, my darlings, my brothers, my family and him..
so many pple i'm missing right now.. some things are just not the same anymore.. and it sucks.. maybe it's just you, maybe it's just me.. i have no idea why things turned out this way, but i hate it..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:33:00 PM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
i'm still not recovering. sigh.. haven't been performing during trainings. feel quite bad.. sigh.. semis is this fri.. god.. pls give us the strength to play on when we're tired. pls give us faith in ourselves and in each other. pls bless us when we play, pls protect everyone from any injuries.. girls.. we can do it kaez.. 'there can be miracles..'
so many things running thru my mind, i just can't organise them.. sucks..
haven't been talking to some pple.. losing contact, drifting apart.. i guess it's just me.. sorry..
hate myself.. i gotta be stronger!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:06:00 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
When I need You
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
it's only a heart beat away
When I need love
I hold out my hand and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be traveling forever
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you baby
it's only a heart beat away
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out so hold out and do like I do
When I need you
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day
When I need you
I close my eyes
I hold out my hand and I've got you darlin'
It's only a heart beat away
Now listen
When I need you darlin'
I hold you, feel ya
Give it to me baby
And I miss ya baby
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And I need you tonight
You know it's only a heart beat away
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:19:00 PM
it was a gd day yesterday though i'm sick.. hope everyday will be like yesterday..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:21:00 AM
Saturday, May 15, 2004
had our match yesterday. we won aj 5-0.. hope we continue playing well! next will be the semis. come down support if u want.. we dun need to beg for supporters like the soccer guys. :P guess wat? my thumb got smashed just like a few mins after i got on the pitch. ouch.. it's swollen now.. wonderful.. and.. I AM SICK AGAIN! god.. can't i be stronger? i think i'm gonna die of influenza one day.. serious! or maybe it's dengue cuz i attract mozzies all the time! let me die man..
oh! i think i have a secret admirer! haaha.. my sis's friend heard a dedication for me on 987 tt day.. but well.. i have no idea who issit cuz she din pay attention. hahaa.. cenwei said tt whoever it is, he shld own up. ahaha.. quite interesting.. :)
hm.. you're not the one causing our arguments, dun worry abt it ya.. yupz.. pls dun feel like dying too, u'll be fine.. trust me.. i'm here with u! :)
just ate a slice of cheesecake! mum's really gd at baking.. nice! but i still feel like shit.. :((((
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:14:00 AM
Friday, May 14, 2004
according to him, we've quarrelled 7 times in 6 wks.. tts a record.. things have nv been smooth sailing for us.. i guess everything matters too much, esp things tt has got to do with him.. i care too much.. we're both insecure abt the same things.. and it doesn't help when they keep recurring..
anyway, i'm so glad i went out to shop with zhen today.. so great to see u again girl.. u look fabulous! ahhaa.. must go out soon kaez.. can't wait.. :) OH! ROBINSONS HAVING SALE TOO!! ahhaa.. it's good to go on a shopping spree once in a while.. i spent 100+ bucks on myself.. and another 100+ on other stuff.. yuPz! feels gd.. i'm NOT DONE with shopping yet.. saw 2 skirts i wanna get, shall get it over the weekend. yeah!! so happy abt my purchases. :)))))
thanks pui!! u made my day today.. i love shopping!!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:26:00 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
至少走得比你早-好心分手-卢巧音
你没有想过我会说分手
也许太习惯我在你左右
虽然离开你有很多理由
可看见你这样惊讶也足够
*我想得比你多
陪你一起更寂寞
我性格比你强
怎样做你的绵羊
我年纪比你少不信快乐找不到
抬起头开了口
**最后我比你骄傲
从此不坐你的牢
想不到你的好
记得和你的争吵
想到老可到老
可是和你做不到
如果你爱得比我少
至少我走得比你早
你没有想过我会说分手
随非以为我甚么都忍受
就算你这时候努力挽留
不过是你不能接受我先走
*
**
i have had enough..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:22:00 PM
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Journey- 张韶涵 composer-Corrinne May
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
And it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you
Posted by sil3ntrain at 10:30:00 PM
just got home. lousy mood today. sigh.. just feel lousy abt myself. need to reorganise my life. everything is just off. i have a feeling this is gonna last a few days.. can't bring myself to smile or do anything. just off.. this sucks..
i've made my choice..
yeap..
i'm 'feelingless' now.. damn..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 7:33:00 PM
Monday, May 10, 2004
god! stupid blogger got a new look and seriously this template sux!
anyway.. i think i'm really sweet. seriously!! as in.. i have sweet blood. got attacked by mozzies! so many bites on my delicate skin.. poor me.. ouch! it's itchy and painful at the same time. :(
i'm glad i dun have to make a choice now.. i hate making decisions. just plain lazy i know but well.. heck. i know i'm just avoiding the whole issue but if we're all happy with the current situation, why change? i hate changes..
i contradict myself alot.. but whatever lar.. i hope i'll be happy.. at least for now.. supposed to feel really xing fu but i dun feel anything.. hm...
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:31:00 PM
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Humans are weird, complex creatures
they always want the things they can't get. but when they finally get it, they are not happy
they take things for granted, then regret when they lose it.. too late for regrets ya?
they are indecisive, cuz they want the best of everything. (sometimes u can't have everything, u get some, u lose some. dun always get the best of both worlds)
they contradict themselves, what they say is ALWAYS diff from what they do.
hm.. i wanna be a hamster..
wat a weird thought..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:13:00 PM
Leaving on a Jet Plane- Chantal Kreviazuk
I.............
I.............
All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin'
This early morn
The taxi's waitin'
He's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry
Chorus:
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go
I................
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now
They don't mean a thing
Every place I go
I think of you
Every song I sing
I sing for you
When I come back
I'll wear your wedding ring
Chorus
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the time when I don't have to say.............
Chorus
Leaving on a jet plane(repeat)
typed my entry but it's gone. not gonna say anymore..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:13:00 AM
Saturday, May 08, 2004
it was an off day yesterday. realised some stuff again.. maybe we're not ready. maybe we shld really take a step back and cool things off. need to find out what i really want in my life. what's important and what's not. dun wanna think. need to concentrate..
i miss those carefree days in the past, if only we can relive those memories again.. miss our sec 2 gang. miss laughing and doing crazy stuff..
i miss going out with my dear.. miss crapping and just doing nothing at all. can't wait to go out with u again. :)
oh no.. why do i have so many 'dears'?? haha...
y issit tt i can't bring myself to laugh now?
Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:13:00 PM
Thursday, May 06, 2004
just feeling a little acidic. realised tt he does mean sth to me.. but anyway.. i'll try to neutralize it. yupz! ahaha...
eye is still swollen.. a bit.. it better be ok by tmr.. :( stupid photoshoot again tmr.. gotta wait for like 3.5 hours b4 the thing. may be going for katong laksa with my beloved eu and stace. he may be coming along too. :)
almost choked on my antibiotics today, cuz the tablet is like huge!! (actually it's the size of panadol..) well.. i'm small remember? so everything is TOO BIG for me.. ahaha!
i'm a puny acidic girl.. :P
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:51:00 PM
hot date today! (hm.. actually it's a warm date) was out studying with him today. the table we picked was really near the kitchen at coffee bean.(bad choice) and we actually sat there for like 3+ hours! ahhaa.. talked abt some stuff.. learnt of some stuff.. glad he din hide some things from me.. i'll try not to hide things from him too... TRY. heehee..
went to the dentist, it's actually gum infection which may be due to my growing wisdom tooth. got 3 jabs at 1 shot. and yah.. i gotta feed on antibiotics now.. i better take good care of my teeth.. hmmph.. the dentist was damn rough lar. dun like him.. shall go back to my orthodontist, he's so much gentler.. yuPZ..
my left eye is red and it is hurting now! ahhaa.. funny thing is tt his left eye is hurting too! so cute.. OopS..
yawn.. so tired.. must wake earlier tmr to give him his morning call.. almost made him late today.. sorry dear!
Posted by sil3ntrain at 12:37:00 AM
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
it was a long day.. too many things happened within such a short time. yah.. overwhelmed by all the events.. glad things are finally settling down, and i hope they will remain this way.. dun really wanna think anymore..
i'm having a toothache!! oh no.. shall find time for my dentist. haven't paid him any visits in a long while.. oops..
anyway.. we won our match against nj. 3-0. din play well though, felt quite bad..
sha, yun, fa and all those who were encouraging me, thanks kaez..
hm.. i hate sch.. there are like so many things to do. so many tests coming up. i hate mugging.. sigh.. so tired.. time to sleep..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:51:00 PM
Monday, May 03, 2004
"Out of Reach" - Gabrielle
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see...
Posted by sil3ntrain at 1:57:00 PM
Sunday, May 02, 2004
u nv know how much someone means to u till he/she is gone. so glad i realise it now.. b4 everything is over..
hm.. who is the first person tt comes to your mind when u're happy? and who is tt when u're sad? it's supposed to mean sth.. go figure it out urself. maybe it's time i wake up from my fantasy. yah.. maybe someone will be there waiting for me, and reassure me tt things r gonna be alright..
thanks for being here for me all the time. really.. at least i'm appreciated by u.. thanks.. i feel more worthy now..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:05:00 PM
i hate it when pple are indecisive (though i belong to tt cat, well.. i shall try not to be like tt anymore..), hate it when they dun keep to their plans. (i do tt all the time but i'm gonna change. yupz) so i'm gonna make plans now.
I WUN BE FREE EVERY SUNDAY, cuz it's reserved for a special someone (you dun have to know who) and i'm gonna keep to MY PLAN. wanna say sorry to all those pple i ps b4.. really sorry.. i wun do it again. if i say i'll meet u, i'll keep to it. cuz being ps-ed is NO FUN. and of cuz.. i wun allow myself to be ps too! :P
i'm a very busy girl. if u wanna ask me out, pls make an appointment with my secretary in advance. :P
u need a break? well so do i. and yah.. maybe we'll be happier this way.
thanks so much..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 6:41:00 PM
Saturday, May 01, 2004
viesta soleil was well done. gd job victorians! we finished selling all our pasta! yeah! quite fun. hope we raised enough funds for the airconditioning of our hall and hopefully we have enough for the construction of the mega-gym. cheerleading was hm.. lame.. i seriously can't bring myself to grin like an idiot while dancing. i bet i looked like i was having a spasm. ahaha!
walked ard with ber.. yah.. some things will always remain the same.. the things he said got me thinking once again..
went home with ph, so funny.. he thought i was pissed at him just cuz i refused to talk to him. haha! we went on another trip around the island again.. funny how we keep travelling ard..
still feeling quite off now.. sigh.. maybe it's cuz IT'S here.. sigh.. sux.. hate being a woman..
Posted by sil3ntrain at 11:48:00 PM